Jacque.: Archive

Oct 17th

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Oct 17th

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The worst part about life here is not being able...

Also the only person I want to talk to is, in fact, rejecting me.

Oct 17th

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Watching the Scarlet Letter instead of reading the stoopid bewk > Poor Pearl though… The girls and boys of Massachusetts Bay Colony throw mud at her and push her down on the ground. Those stupid bitches.They call her ‘cry baby’ and other mean names while she sits there on the ground all dirty and sad… How rude, you know?

Oct 16th

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Oct 16th

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Oct 16th

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How did I lose 9 pounds? What in the… I haven’t even been trying this week.. But I haven’t weighed in since Monday because we packed up our scale for the house showing. Fuckin’ weird. Today in Comm Apps I made this chart of goal weights. And basically every five pounds I lose, I get a reward type thing. I’m really excited to do it because it’s all stuff that I...

Oct 16th

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Why is it so hard to forget?

likesomeswag: Why is it so hard to just move on?

Oct 15th

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My new Tumblr, explained.

You might not like some of the things on this blog, if you’re just coming over from my old blog. But hey. It’s me and it’s what I think about. I’m done hiding. Here I am, this is me. Take it or leave it. When I get home from school I will be editing both blogs. Deleting all my personal stuff from afearoffalling and turning into the pretty hipster blog I want it to be. Ha....

Oct 14th

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Oct 5th

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Oct 5th

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(Please note, I don’t mean to offend. I have been carrying a lot of this baggage with me over the last year and I really need to let it out. Also, excuse any grammatical errors, it’s 3am and I’ve only had six hours of sleep before this point. Also, don’t take any statements to heart. It’s been with me for a while and I need to let it out.) Just the fact that you said that at the end of the...

Sep 22nd

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I fucking hate this. I want you to come back. It’s not okay that you’ve left me. God, fuck. I’m alone back here because you’re 1200 miles away. Fuck.

Sep 11th

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Anonymous asked: is it bad that im going to have sex with a guy, just to find out what it feels like, not because i love him?

Sep 10th

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Sometimes..

Sometimes I just want to kill you. Why can’t you see that I’m hurt? Why can’t you see that every mother fucking day that passes is another day I want to fucking kill myself and everyone around me? Fuck it, you know? I try so hard to put on this fake “I’m not sad that he left! I haven’t even cried about it!” routine, but I fucking cry every fucking night....

Sep 10th

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Hunter: Why when I tell you something that I really, truly mean it but someone else says the same thing you are like 0.0
Me: Oh. Because I don't know. I know you think those things about me. You wouldn't stick around if you didn't. When it comes from a random person, it shocks me that someone could think that about me.
Hunter: No you just don't believe me when I say it, so you think it's impossible.
Me: It's not that. I just.. Idk. I don't believe anyone because of the way I think about myself. It's not that I like... Think you're lying. I just. It's me. I can't. Compliments. I can't fathom them.
Hunter: Why not. Just augh I'm going to hit you!
Me: Because my whole friggin life people have put me down. Even now, in high school, all the guys I go to school with that seem to matter call me Mrs Khan behind my back because I'm the only slightly-attractive fat girl at school. All the friends I used to have dropped me once we hit 10th grade. It's like I got ugly all of the sudden. And not just my physical appearance, but my personality. It's like no one likes me anymore but you and Jessica and everyone else is fake to me or uses me for something. I don't even like myself. Hoe can I when no one else seems to?
Hunter: But I do, Jacque. Is that not enough?

Sep 10th

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Sometimes I want someone to talk to about this. Sometimes I want to be able to tell someone that I’m in pain. That I’m suffering tremendously. I want someone to see that I black out during class when someone asks me to ‘grab them a worksheet’. I want someone I can tell that I haven’t eaten in four days. But most days I want to be alone.

Sep 2nd

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Starvation is fulfilling. Colors become brighter,...

Aug 28th

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I feel so fucking fat today. Why did I wear this. Fuck.

Aug 24th

115andbeyond-deactivated2011032 asked: your blog combines two of my favorite things. thank you so much for existing. <333

Jan 15th

frenchfriesstayonmythighs-deact asked: I love your blog, Doll <3

Jan 12th

Anonymous asked: I want to follow you because I like the pro weed part, but I don't like the pro ana part. I used to be bulimic and I'm happy to be over it. I feel healthier and stronger and happier. Why did you decide to be pro ana?

Jan 11th

intergalacticbullshit-deactivat asked: I love your tumblr and xanga, they are sweet :)

Jan 11th

Anonymous asked: http://annanotbanana.tumblr.com/post/2519452074

Jan 10th

Anonymous asked: are you tryna go anorexic?

Jan 10th

evancondron asked: haha thanks for posting my submission. That shit made for a good New Years

Jan 10th

Anonymous asked: are u tryna go ano?im not against it or judging here but yeh just curious

Jan 9th

sex-drugs-dubstep asked: hey i just found this blog and i think ive found my love! xx